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Midnight Serenades

I’ve been banned from coyotes

I ordered a torta de asada excused myself to the washroom to regurgitate the several shots of whiskey and birthday beer. I told myself “act happy, be happy, you’re happy” leaning over the toilet bowl, I was happy. I began running, “keep running” into a gang way. I call you, I stared at my phone as I hoped for some sign that I shouldn’t because your drunk and I know you miss him, but fuck him, you deserve better, you’re being stupid, stop. Hearing you, I wish I could see you. i know it’s her, and it’ll always be her… and me, I’ll always want to stay. I wore blood stains all over white, my hands, wrists and nose. I don’t know what happens now.

I’ve been banned from coyotes

I ordered a torta de asada excused myself to the washroom to regurgitate the several shots of whiskey and birthday beer. I told myself “act happy, be happy, you’re happy” leaning over the toilet bowl, I was happy. I began running, “keep running” into a gang way. I call you, I stared at my phone as I hoped for some sign that I shouldn’t because your drunk and I know you miss him, but fuck him, you deserve better, you’re being stupid, stop. Hearing you, I wish I could see you. i know it’s her, and it’ll always be her… and me, I’ll always want to stay. I wore blood stains all over white, my hands, wrists and nose. I don’t know what happens now.

I’ll probably have whiskey tonight

The first 10 minutes of my 22nd birthday spent in aches and tears. Because I’m not a wondering thought in his head. And how I cannot forget you, like you’ve overwritten me.
Sushi Girl
Sushi Girl
SUSHI GIRL
I didn’t even know her, but she’s ruined my life.

"I wasn’t trying to make her life worse, I was trying to make mine better."
My first time at Chipotle. 

Don’t you hate it when you want this thing but it got a bunch of awful reviews? 

Without you

See my face when I slide through
Every place I will find you
Every time we fell apart
Girl I see it in the stars
Baby hold my hand, let me be your man
Let me take you away from the cold
Baby be my diamonds and gold
Wander through the dead with you caught up in my head
Thinkin Ima flip and fill my brain with lead
Ima end my life without you
Baby lets just see what these clouds do
I’m not so perfect baby yeah you worth it, come right here
[Hey]
Girl let me see you work it
Now we closin curtains, come right here



[Verse 2: SPOOKY BLACK]
Dont you know youre so sexy the way you move your body up and down
I wanna tell you how beautiful you are but you’re no where to be found
[Hey]
I tried to protect you
From my hands you left
You broke my heart right there, all I do is stare, no you’ll never fuckin care
[Hey]
I thought you were different
Telling me what is and I was wrong
I never thought of you as ignant now I’m gettin lifted, you’re in my soul
Baby I’m about to die
Baby wanna watch me die
Baby don’t you wanna know why
Didn’t even try

Q: How do you just move on, like how do people survive such ache, when things don’t feel over?

A: You just start to forget.

I think about him a lot, I think about it a lot, the blonde pixie cut girl. I choose them, little village Blu girl, Sophia with the black tights, Vicky with the guitar, the rest of them with their literary skills and intellectual rebuttals. How much I want to be that with my Japanese comics and obsession with Sonic Youth and Chicago Blues. With tits like raisins, tattoos of complex meaning. And all I had was my vulnerability to give, stupid jokes to recite and unreliable spelling.