Vera touched my pierced nipple, I felt like girls gone wild. I look at myself in the mirror purposely, my piercing makes my breasts so much more attractive.
That’s not who I want to be, a mission accomplished. And once you got what you came for, you leave. Every boundary I crossed with comfort of you. It’s all been genuine from the start. Maybe I get too comfortable quickly, when someone gives me what seems like genuine attention, I’d like to think people actually care to infest themselves in one person.
I can’t keep my hands to myself, I’ve become so affectionate it’s gross dude, like I touch all up on Eddy. His cherubic skin, his body so soft and warm. He’s been occasionally talking about me sleeping over and I want to. There are days I just miss him and laying next to him, his arms weaving me in closer are the only thoughts that calm me. My mind has become so polluted with thoughts of us, him and I. Eddy and Becky. I’m happy, I’m thrilled.
It’s just confusing, I’m looking for the best way to describe this and now, fermenting feeling. I lay on the rust colored floor, i want to pick myself up but I lost feeling and the urge to try. Me quiero ir, quiero llorar.