Midnight Serenades

Vera touched my pierced nipple, I felt like girls gone wild. I look at myself in the mirror purposely, my piercing makes my breasts so much more attractive. 

That’s not who I want to be, a mission accomplished. And once you got what you came for, you leave. Every boundary I crossed with comfort of you. It’s all been genuine from the start. Maybe I get too comfortable quickly, when someone gives me what seems like genuine attention, I’d like to think people actually care to infest themselves in one person.

I don’t know, babies and having babies scare me. 

I can’t keep my hands to myself, I’ve become so affectionate it’s gross dude, like I touch all up on Eddy. His cherubic skin, his body so soft and warm. He’s been occasionally talking about me sleeping over and I want to. There are days I just miss him and laying next to him, his arms weaving me in closer are the only thoughts that calm me. My mind has become so polluted with thoughts of us, him and I. Eddy and Becky. I’m happy, I’m thrilled. 

I don’t wanna get up early! 

wah. 

I don’t deserve thissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

I just want to break down and cry

My appt with Sam was canceled cause ol’girl is sick.

Ugh, I NEED YOU SAM!

Velvet tongue so sweet, say anything you’d like

It’s just confusing, I’m looking for the best way to describe this and now, fermenting feeling. I lay on the rust colored floor, i want to pick myself up but I lost feeling and the urge to try. Me quiero ir, quiero llorar.

I guess I didn’t mind you fucking some other girl. I fell asleep, I forgot to call. You were out at the bar, sad and confused, 

I don’t blame you. 

Bourbon

Whiskey

Pass the vodka.

I’m not mad, I’m just lonely. My ego. My pride. 

When you touch me it doesn’t feel right. 

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